I see so clearly now

I have been fighting sleep all day. I didn't want to be dragged into the depths of my unconsciousness. My wolves are gone, they have been for about a week or so. It has been one of the longest weeks in my life. All I dream right now is walking through the jungle; the heat is intense and I am not enjoying the walk. This is not my forest, this is a place which is not home. I come across a wall it is as high as I can see when I look up to the sky it runs for miles left and right and there is no end in sight. There is two doors. Each one has it's own special key and it's own special color and just when I think I know it's color it changes once again. How can one make decisions when half the fact are lies and the truth behind those lies is still unknown? I am tired and today I found another nest full of lies, webs, and deceit. For the last week all I do is crumble to the floor, sit, head down, looking at my shadow as the sun starts to set and my shadow starts to fade with the darkness that is starting to engulf me. To my surprise I look up and see dark eyes looking at me and I feel quite comfortable in the dark. In the distance I see the campfire with snickering three that have haunted my life since I was a little girl. The dark eyes fade away as pink baseball bat with silver glitter appears and I know that if I could just reach it; it would just fit perfectly in my hands.