I See You Moon

I see you Moon. Even with my eyes open and when I close them you are with me right away even though I am still awake.  My heart, my spirit, and my soul is currently immersed in my ocean and my mind.  Well my mind is with Moon and my other wolves.  I see them in the corners of my sight and they listen and as I call for help I hear them in my mind with me.  Aknowledging their presence as they show themselves to me for they are with me.  My tears are falling and I feel a wolf hug holding me.  Such peace I feel as I call for help.  For I know my wolves are always with me whether I see them or not.  Lord I am grateful for my wolves are once again in my dreams.  No dreams full of running, no dreams full of soul searching..just dreams full of rest.  Me and my wolves resting, finding strength, health, peace, and joy. Only my wolves and I know this name and instinctly and yet unconsciously it was written.  Least favorite of all.  No outside influence.  I am sure of this as sure of I know there is a day and I know there is a night.  This name was slipped in between words, whether consciously or not it is there.  I asked God to show me a sign.  I am at peace.  I have done what I can.  In the middle of turmoil that does not include me, it is clear.  I am the least.  Only my wolves, my angels, God, and I would know that name for me, no one else.  I lay myself down to sleep and ask God to lovingly and willingly release what no longer serves me in a positive way.  As my wolves surround me and create a protective cirlce around so nothing from this world or the dream world can get near me. I hear my prayers start as I call into the night "parts of me, my heart, my soul, my spirit, my essence come back to me.  I long to be whole once again like a newborn child taking their first breath for I have this right.  Come to me clear, come to me clean, come to me as you once were on day one.  My dreams, my hopes, my joys, and my sorrows that have been shared..come back to me for I call on thee." I rest by the camp fire as I get up and throw the hecklers away into the abyss of the darkness that they came from and walk back into the circle and lay me down to sleep.  I hear my wolves say in unison.. "about time you did that sweetie."   I smile and say good night as the tears continue to fall.  As I look up into the night, much to my surprise in the night sky I also see my angels covering the sky as they fly protectively overhead and they call out to me and say "good night sweetie, sleep in peace."  I feel the light that comes from God in my heart as the tears still fall and the winds gently says "we never liked that nickname for you anyway".   Moon hugs me and says "we know this name for you but if you think and recall we never called you this name.  It was only jackasses in your dreams that ever called you Gemini and the pattern has now spilled over.  Do not be afraid.  It spilled over for your validation and for your acknowledment of how we are here for you.  It was meant to be pure, but enough to rattle you to notice to remind of what you already know.  Know thyself, be true to thyself, this will lead you to the path of wholeness."  I close my eyes as one angel hovers over and like a mother puts a blanket on me as my tears continue to fall.    I whisper my good nights as I hear them replied and I am amazed as me tears fall in the midst of being at peace.  I have learned well.  One can find peace and pain in the same moment and for this and for all I give my thanks as I drift of to sleep.